Scotty!!!! I can't believe. How could someone kill another person? This is sick. Scotty was such a great person. All of the nights he spent as the clown will stay with everyone at Fright Factory. We Love You Scotty.

We'll Miss You!

Currently Listening decemberunderground By AFI Miss Murder see related

Tear

All I release is one single tear.

All alone, with no one near.

The intensity of it's great.

it's filled with anger, loneliness, and hate.

It takes the place of many more.

Anymore and I would have walked through the door.

Slipping into deep, dark depression.

Still I give out a smile and a good impression.

I repeat to myself that it's okay.

But I still hide my emotions each day.

The question remains, Happiness, Can I Be, Can I?

People around me still say no but I ask why.

Tucked away in my pocket I keep my feelings.

Their true smiles still resist as my stealings.

How long can I keep on with this act?

There's no stop in sight, and that's a fact.

Sometimes I wish I could leave it all behind.

This confusion continues to infect my mind.

When will it clear up and just go?

Only time will tell, then I will know.

That is all me for now.

Clearing this calls me for one final question,

HOW? 

Currently Listening Anywhere But Home (w/ bonus DVD) By Evanescence see related

Hello my children of a great soul,

Today was my first day of school since my week-long absence. I thought is was going to be a sucky day, but, to my suprise, it wasn't! In science we got to catch something on fire and mix chemicals and stuff. The in fourth we were allowed to got to the football field and play soccer. That was much much fun. Derek and I were goalies and Dustin, Hannah, Erica, Megan, Brandon, Chelsea, and Justin were kickin the soccer balls at us and we were trying to block. It was just totally unorganized. Fith nothing happend. Then In SIXTH.......That was the icing on the cake. I am going out now with ERICA! Yay. Love you Erica.

Currently Listening Three Days Grace By Three Days Grace I Hate Everything About You see related

Today was a day of recuperation for me, for my mind, body, and soul. I worked on discovering me. Discovery and finding the fabric and design of my personality. I tried to understand my place in the world and where my puzzle piece fits. I attempted to find and repair my flaws. As I said, I ATTEMPTED. I discovered that a couple of my flaws were things that defined my character. Even if they were good or bad, I kept them. I will cherish them until my character changes and then I will deal with them accordingly. Just like I would a person in my life. Deal with them and place them on a pedestal at a height that fits them in my eyes. I like my eyes, their color, shape, and proportion, so, I guess, the person would be right where they belonged. I also realized that I am one of the best actors in the world, I can be happy. I can be happy when I am sad, lonely, depressed, angered, anxious, forlorn, and broken-hearted. I don't know how long I can keep up this act because lately the weight of the world has become so heavy. I am going through personal struggles with almost everything that makes me, me. My home life has been so hard lately. Sometimes I just wish I could walk away and start all over again. The main thing I can't stand to endure is the constant pressure to do better. I feel pulled back and forth between the side of me that wants to slack off some and relax and have fun and then I am pulled by the side that says that I must strive for more and more all of the time. I just wish I could find a medium on which I could sit back and say Yeah. I have also been having problems with someone(I can't really say). Physical and verbal abuse begins to build up. It is just so hard to cope.

Doctors say that depression is a chemical imbalance, but I say

that it is MUCH DEEPER than that. 

Leave me comments because they make me happy and you won't like me when I am angry.

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